I’m sorry it’s been so long since I’ve written an update on here. As I wrote in a letter earlier today to a dear friend who is also fighting lyme disease, I shared with her that every time I have sat down to do a blogpost I would “start with a blank screen and end with a blank screen.” If I’ve ever had “writer’s block” in knowing how and what to share regarding this continual battle with Lyme it would be the past several months. Part of it has been honest to goodness extreme weariness of trying to put into words what living with daily pain is like and just wanting to flat out ignore it and not have to think about putting it into words. The other part is that it is REALLY hard for me to make such personal things public. But this past week has reminded me once again how precious it is to have so many of you out there who care about me, who are praying for me and truly want to know how I’m doing. Thank you. It brings tears to my eyes feeling so loved by so many whom I have never met….. The e-mails, letters and phone calls I get from people concerned over how long it’s been since there’s been an update on here touches my heart deeply.
This Fall and Winter have not been without their challenges, but I’m still doing better than I have in several years. As for current treatment, I’ve been doing the “Cowden Protocol” with herbal supplements and have worked up to a pretty high dose. (Those of you also doing “Cowden” know how hard that is!) I’ve been very faithful at staying on the herbal drops even though the herxing has at times been very uncomfortable. If my lyme count isn’t as low as we’d like to see it next month, I’ll have to go back on antibiotics. Because of the side effects antibiotics always cause for my gut, I’m really praying and hoping the “Cowden Protocol” will prove to be successful for me as it has for others with Lyme. The other thing I’m taking right now that has helped several people I know turn around their Lyme is “Plexus”. I was very skeptical to try it at first, but as long as I’m on it I don’t get daily “shaking spells” or “lyme seizures” as some people call them. I’ve been on it since last June and when I went off of it for a short time over the Fall, the shaking returned and then disappeared again when I got back on it. The shaking was so bad I’m scared to go back off of it. It hasn’t seemed to take away my fatigue like it has for a lot of people I know, but I do feel much more stable on it and more comfortable getting out and being around people again because of not having to worry about “shaking spells”. That has been a HUGE blessing and I’m really praying that it’ll help me turn around the damage the Lyme has done to my body, as it has for others that I know. I had a fever for two days about a month ago, and ever since then my pain level and inflammation has been pretty high. My body seems to be having a hard time recovering and rebuilding from that sickness episode. I’m used to it taking a month or so before I feel better after an additional sickness on top of Lyme, but this has seemed to take me out of the game more than normal and ever since has induced a lot of chest pain and heart palpitations again. I’ll be talking to my Doctor on Monday about if I need to bring a Cardiologist back into the mix. I’ve had a lot of heart issues since first coming down with Lyme 10 years ago, and we like to rule serious conditions out with a cardiologist. In the past, except for some blood pressure problems, 1st degree heart block once and lots of palpitations – usually the Cardiologists are not too concerned. All that to say, it’s not too alarming to me what I’m currently experiencing, but its been keeping me up a lot at night to have so many palpitations and I’m really praying for wisdom and discernment about what I can do to strengthen my cardiovascular system. I know the Lyme has really taken it’s toll on that part of my body, as it has the rest as well. My nutritional IV’s always REALLY help with heart issues, but I’ve been hoping & praying that my body would be strong enough to not need them anymore. I may need to go back to them, and that would be ok…..Jesus knows. <3 I know I can trust Him and I’m very grateful for that! <3 I just definitely long for the day when getting poked with needles on a regular basis is a thing of the past.
Specific Prayer Requests:
- That my Doctors appointment on 2/8/2016 goes well.
- For the Cowden Protocol to continue to bring my lyme count down.
- For my heart to be strengthened and palpitations to stop.
- Continued wisdom, guidance and peace.
- Grace to keep praising Him each and every day because His plan is perfect and beautiful…even if it’s hard to see and understand at times. <3
Thank you, friends, for your generous support, encouragement, love & prayers! This fight is far from over, but Jesus has it in His hands and I’m praying for grace and strength to continue to praise and thank Him each day for whatever physical strength He chooses to give or withhold. <3 I love this quote: “When we long for a life without difficulties, remind us that oak trees grow strong under contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure.” ~Peter Marshall
God has a plan and we can most certainly trust Him!! Thank You, Jesus! <3
Thank you, again, dear prayer warriors!!! Love and prayers to each and every one of you!! I hope you all are well and enjoy a beautiful February!