Hello Dear Friends! <3
I spent the day yesterday at my clinic having appointments and getting treatments done and OF COURSE had to be dressed in green to show support for my beloved Michigan State Basketball team that was going to be playing in the Sweet 16 Tournament that evening.
I was super exhausted after the day at my Doctors and would’ve crashed in bed as soon as we got home except that there was NO WAY I could do that with the Sweet 16 game airing at 10:07PM. :-) If you missed it, the game was amazing! On THREE SEPARATE occasions Oklahoma was 10 points ahead of us and our Spartans pulled through, caught up, took the lead and won the game even though it didn’t seem like they were going to at times. WooHoo! Underdog surprise victory once again! ;-) What a great Coach Tom Izzo is and I was blessed to hear Travis Trice thank God on national television after the game was over for the win! Watching the game reminded me of what this fight against Lyme is like….there has been set back after set back….and sometimes I totally feel 10 points behind in this game/fight against Lyme Disease…but through HIS strength, grace & prayers of my many cheerleaders and in the name of Jesus I will move forward and win this battle against Lyme Disease! <3 One of the things that Travis Trice said at the end of the game was this: “We stick together, that’s what Spartans do.” Yes! Right On! And that’s how I feel about EACH OF YOU! <3 So many of you have not left my side through your prayers, encouragement, support and love….in other words, we’re fighting *Spartan Style*. ;-)
On to an update about yesterday’s appointment. I’ll start with a list of prayer requests so that those of you who need a condensed version can just have this list without having to read through the WHOLE blogpost. ;-) ;-) ;-)
1.) That I would be able to work up to 600mg shot dose of Glutathione weekly….I’ve worked up to 200mg so far. It makes me pretty sick and can be hard to increase, but I really need to be on a higher dose to help my body rid itself of all the neurotoxins from the Lyme Disease.
2.) Wisdom for Doctors regarding my Cardiovascular problems… Lyme related? Nutrition-deficiency related? Or Heart related? I’ve had full Cardio work ups with Cardiologists etc….and we can’t seem to exactly pin point what is going on with my heart except that Lyme Disease can pretty much be blamed for just about any symptom and we do know for a fact that it is attacking my heart. So pray against the Lyme from causing any further damage and for healing and a balance of my Cardio System.
3.) Strength & Courage easing back into starting Blood Treatments again next week….that those would go smoothly and continue to help my body rid itself of the Lyme Disease in my blood and other co-infections I am fighting.
4.) Continued increase in muscle strength so that I can walk up stairs easily again without needing to lay down for an hour after just going into the upstairs of our house.
5.) That new tests we are doing over the next few weeks would shed more light on what is going on inside my body with more clear direction on the best treatment options.
Thank you for letting me share those specific requests with you all! <3 Before heading into my Doctors appointment yesterday I was praying and claiming this verse that had really encouraged me in my morning devotions: “GREAT is our Lord and ABUNDANT in STRENGTH; His *understanding* is INFINITE.” ~Psalms 147:5 The understanding of my Jesus…my Healer…my Jehovah Rapha is infinite, beyond measure and there is no limit to His wisdom. Even though there is still so much unknown regarding Chronic Lyme Disease….how to treat it….how to fully overcome it…and more specifically, with my body…what exactly is going on with my muscles etc…JESUS KNOWS! <3 NOTHING is hidden from Him. He fully understands and comprehends every aspect of my health and my prayer is always that His wisdom will flood the minds of the Doctors that I work with and that He will lead and direct through them as I continue on to full healing. What a comfort it is to meditate on the fact that HIS understanding is infinite. <3 Chronic Lyme is barely understood by us humans…but completely understood by our God! <3 Thank You, Jesus!
My Doctor is having me get back into blood treatments regularly now that I am stronger again as well as continue with my IV’s and shots of glutathione, daily PFG treatments, almost hourly different combinations of supplements/medicine/herbs/shakes etc… Everything has a different purpose, but the end result is to help bring my body to full healing from the Lyme. Some things I do are fighting the Lyme Disease cells and other co-infections, some are helping my body detox because I have a gene mutation that makes detoxing the toxic poison Lyme releases into my cells almost impossible, and others are for rebuilding all the damage that the Lyme has done to my muscles, nerves, brain…basically every organ. I deal with almost constant very intense pain throughout my whole body still and even though I’m walking again….WHICH IS HUGE…(Thank You, Jesus)….I still spend about half of most (not all) days in bed due to weakness/fatigue/pain. The cold from this past Winter really aggravated my pain levels and so I am *extremely* thrilled about Summer being around the corner and the refreshment that spending time outdoors in the sun always brings! :-)
I feel like the Lord has been bringing me to a lot of verses recently about *waiting*….
“…having *PATIENTLY* waited, he obtained the promise.” ~Hebrews 6:15
“The Lord favors those who fear Him, those who *WAIT* for His lovingkindness.”~Psalms 147:11
“In the shadow of YOUR wings I will take refuge UNTIL destruction *passes by*.” ~Psalms 57:1
“I would have despaired unless I had BELIEVED that I WOULD see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. *WAIT* for the Lord; BE STRONG and let your heart take courage; Yes, *WAIT* for the Lord.” ~Psalms 27:13-14
And so, when the pain wakes me up again….and it’s hard to face another day of treatments…when I’m beyond frustrated at still having to spend so much time in bed...I read through, pray through and claim all the precious promises and verses that He has blessed me with in His Word about WAITING. <3 “There is always an afterward of His gracious promising.” ALWAYS an afterward…<3 There’s a day before….and a day after….the day before the leper could walk, and the day after he was healed! The day before the woman who had bleeding for 12 years who had spent all she had on Doctors, and then the day after she was healed! There was the day before the blind man could see….and then the day after! Praise God!!! “God sometimes delays, but HE ALWAYS COMES!” “In the Name of Jesus, I have asked and received. It is true that I have had to WAIT because my time was ill-judged and God’s time was FAR BETTER. But delays are not denials.” ~Charles Spurgeon He has proven His faithfulness in my life over and over and over again….He has already done MIRACULOUS healing and the saving of my life over and over and over again…. This battle continues, but it’s not without HOPE. It’s FULL OF HOPE! God has blessed me with a prayer army of cheerleaders, many incredible Doctors and specialists and a heart that can’t let go of His promises….knowing that at the *perfect* moment….as I *WAIT* on Him….even when I *FEEL* 10 points behind in this battle against Lyme…HE will help me win this…actually no, He will win it for me…because He already DID win it for me, on the Cross long ago. <3 Thank You, Jesus.
“What I am doing you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand.” ~Jesus (John 13:7) He is doing something….something I don’t understand, something I wouldn’t have chosen to walk through…but HE has a reason, He ALWAYS has a reason, and I can trust Him and praise Him because He went through more for me and saved me from far more pain (the pain of separation from Him) than I could EVER imagine. <3
Matthew 26:30- “And when they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.” – “The Savior SANG under the very shadow of the cross. What serenity and inward triumph is reflected in this revealing sentence! Anyone can sing in the sunshine, but to sing in the shadows is a rare accomplishment.” ~Oswald Sanders
“Not only is Jesus singing as He faces the cross, but what is He singing? He’s singing praise, worship, thanksgiving, honor to the Lord. There’s no doubt here; there’s no fear. There’s no anxiety; there’s no turmoil. There’s just that calm serenity that GOD IS GOOD; GOD IS IN CONTROL; God’s WILL is going to be done.” ~Nancy Leigh DeMoss
And so, in closing with this update and some thoughts….thank you, friends. Thank you for praising HIM in the struggles and crosses in your own lives…because He LOVES YOU SO MUCH! <3 Thank You for praising Jesus WITH ME….He’s already won the victory over Lyme Disease….but meanwhile, in this *waiting* period…thank you for battling with me in your prayers, support and encouragment.
God bless your day!!!