Hey Friends,

I hope this finds you enjoying a lovely Spring day!  I’m pretty good, except that I’m experiencing a lot of “air hunger” (feeling like I can’t get enough air because of a lyme co-infection I’m dealing with) and some bad chest pain today.  Both of which definitely wipe me out, so I’ve spent today resting in bed.  Because my activity is quite limited on days like today it’s a good opportunity to write a blogpost then, right?! :-) Right. ;-)

On Tuesday I saw my main Dr. at the Born Clinic in Grand Rapids, MI.  We were going over the results to my NutraEval test through Genova Diagnostics which is a very comprehensive test looking at the function, health, nutrition and toxicity levels of your individual cells.  It was quite fascinating because it was an 11 page report on all the nutrients your cells need to function correctly.  I would recommend ANYONE to get this test who are experiencing any kind of health problems.  I learned that for myself personally, ALL my vitamin B levels are WAY below normal range even though I’m taking a lot of vitamin B already.  And when I mean ALL B levels…I mean ALL. ;-) LOL.  B1, B2, B3, B6, B7, B9, B12….no wonder I feel so exhausted and tired all the time!!!  I’m also quite low in magnesium, a-lipoic acid, glutathione, vitamin C etc etc…  I do take all of those vitamins but now I’m needing to increase them even more and possibly take different versions of them as well as other supplements that will help my cells actually absorb the nutrients.  Recently 2 of my main symptoms have been heart issues as well as major fatigue which besides Lyme causing both of those things, low vitamin levels can also cause them. Magnesium is one of the most important nutrients for the heart to function normal, so it makes sense if my magnesium is so low that I’m getting heart issues and then my energy is pretty low which ANYONE is going to have low energy with their Vitamin B levels being almost non-existent like mine.   My Doctor showed me a diagram of the “Krebs Cycle” and how you need the right balance of fats, carbs, proteins, amino acids, etc for your cells to accept and process nutrients.  If you don’t have enough of something, pathways shut down and can cause a host of bad symptoms in the body….not to mention that already Lyme itself totally depletes the body of it’s nutrition storage as well as glutathione and other things the body uses to process vitamins in the cells.  I know I’m doing a terrible job of explaining this….but it’s so interesting how God made our bodies to work and that if any one thing is out of balance it will start to cause problems.  A test like this definitely helps with recognizing what areas of nutrition you need to work on and what areas you are good with.  You don’t want to overdose on vitamins…but sometimes, you do have to take quite large doses of certain ones to get your levels back up to normal.  This is just one of the many puzzle pieces we are working on to get my health back up to par.  It’s easy for people to think that it’s all about just killing the Lyme Disease.  And yes, that’s a HUGE piece to the puzzle of recovering your health from Chronic Lyme, but there are many other pathways that need to be taken care of as well and making sure your body is getting the proper nutrition is just as critical.  Your cells can’t repair the damage the Lyme has done to them without it.  I look forward to the day, hopefully soon, when my Lyme is completely gone and I can just focus on rebuilding my body and get back to my old self! :-)  I know that day is coming….thank You, Jesus!  I’m so ready for life to involve more than Doctors appointments and tests and treatments and rest days…..:-)  *INCREDIBLY* grateful that I have been able to start branching out and doing more activities again outside of the home recently…I can’t tell you how much it blesses my heart to be able to get out of the house and see people!!!! :-D :-) Granted, I often times crash afterwards for a day or two….but it’s so wonderful at least having a little bit of energy back!!!

A few days ago I was getting overwhelmed with EVERYTHING I have to keep track of to keep my health moving upwards (it’s more than a full-time job) and just felt like bursting into tears and was like, “God, I just can’t do this anymore…it’s so hard to keep fighting such an intense battle.”  And I felt like He just looked down at me and smiled and said, “Monica, grab your hymn book and go outside and just rest in praising Me for awhile.”  And so….that’s what I did.  Without fail, EVERY SINGLE TIME I just spend time praising Him renewed strength, courage, joy, peace and encouragement floods my soul balancing out my emotions and getting my focus back on my Savior!  He inhabits our praises!  Satan flees at praise!  Praise erases discouragement because you focus your heart, mind and spirit on the One who conquered death, sin and sickness on the cross.  The God who made Heaven and Earth is the God who helps me and you, who walks with us through EVERY moment of joy and EVERY moment of sadness.  I love this verse: But thou art holy, thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel.” Psalm 22:3 – He inhabits our *praise*!  And where God inhabits…where Light permeates…darkness is forced to leave.  I guarantee you that you can’t stay discouraged for long when you start singing through the solid hymns of old and praying through the precious Psalms.  And so, thanks to God….that’s been my habit lately, if I start to feel overwhelmed or like I can’t carry this burden anymore…I sing through hymns and pray through Psalms until that feeling of discouragement lifts and only He is left.  To those of you who may be suffering in even deeper and greater ways than I am, I am not downplaying your suffering….or mine.  But isn’t it amazing that we have One who *understands* and *sees* and *knows* and has promised to somehow work it all out for good and for His glory? <3 We CAN praise Him for what He has ALREADY done, we CAN praise Him for what He is to us RIGHT NOW in this moment, and we CAN praise Him for what He is GOING to do. “Forty years was a LONG time to wait in preparation for a great mission.  Yet when God delays, He is NOT inactive.  This is when He prepares His instruments and matures our strength.  Then at the appointed time we will rise up and be equal to our task.  Even Jesus of Nazareth had thirty years of privacy, growing in wisdom before He began His work.” ~John Henry Jowett   And also this one: God is never in a hurry.  He spends years preparing those He plans to greatly use, and never thinks of the days of preparation as being too long or boring.  The most difficult ingredient of suffering is often time.” ~Streams in the Desert   And so, knowing that we can trust His timing as being perfect, when discouragement hits you based on any battle you are facing, whether it be Lyme Disease, another Chronic Illness, or something else….remember these verses, choose to trust your Heavenly Father, and praise Him because He ALWAYS does somehow and in some way work everything out for good. “Rejoice *ALWAYS*; pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” ~1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 

To all of you fighting hard battles today….physical, emotional, unseen or seen….be encouraged.  Just like your God did not forget Joseph, Moses, or Job during their long moments of “waiting” seasons…He has not forgotten you!  Recently I’ve been re-reading “Abide in Christ” by Andrew Murray and was blessed by this section: “Blessed rest, the fruit and the foretaste and the fellowship of God’s own rest, found of them who thus come to Jesus to abide in Him!  It is the peace of God, the great calm of the eternal world, that passes all understanding, and that keeps the heart and mind (Phil. 4:7).  With this grace secured, we have strength for EVERY duty, courage for EVERY struggle, a blessing in EVERY cross, and JOY of life eternal in death itself.” ~Andrew Murray  – He went on to explain how Jesus is the Vine and we are the branches…with the analogy of everything that the branch has and does is determined by it being connected to the Vine.  Everything in the Vine spreads to the branch….the Vine holds nothing back.  The same is for us with our Jesus!  We are the branches and so EVERYTHING that our Jesus is…His strength, love, hope, joy, courage etc…ALL of that can be ours as we spend time abiding in Him and looking to Him to meet every need.  Afterall, the branches can’t do anything on their own apart from the vine, and neither can we apart from God. :-)

Okay, enough talking, Monica! :-)  Blessings on you and your day!  Thanks for reading and God bless you.

With Love,


Fighting Spartan Style

Hello Dear Friends! <3

I spent the day yesterday at my clinic having appointments and getting treatments done and OF COURSE had to be dressed in green to show support for my beloved Michigan State Basketball team that was going to be playing in the Sweet 16 Tournament that evening.

IMG_3267I was super exhausted after the day at my Doctors and would’ve crashed in bed as soon as we got home except that there was NO WAY I could do that with the Sweet 16 game airing at 10:07PM. :-)  If you missed it, the game was amazing!  On THREE SEPARATE occasions Oklahoma was 10 points ahead of us and our Spartans pulled through, caught up, took the lead and won the game even though it didn’t seem like they were going to at times. WooHoo!  Underdog surprise victory once again! ;-) What a great Coach Tom Izzo is and I was blessed to hear Travis Trice thank God on national television after the game was over for the win!  Watching the game reminded me of what this fight against Lyme is like….there has been set back after set back….and sometimes I totally feel 10 points behind in this game/fight against Lyme Disease…but through HIS strength, grace & prayers of my many cheerleaders and in the name of Jesus I will move forward and win this battle against Lyme Disease! <3   One of the things that Travis Trice said at the end of the game was this: “We stick together, that’s what Spartans do.” Yes!  Right On!  And that’s how I feel about EACH OF YOU! <3  So many of you have not left my side through your prayers, encouragement, support and love….in other words, we’re fighting *Spartan Style*. ;-)

On to an update about yesterday’s appointment.  I’ll start with a list of prayer requests so that those of you who need a condensed version can just have this list without having to read through the WHOLE blogpost. ;-) ;-) ;-)

Prayer Requests:

1.) That I would be able to work up to 600mg shot dose of Glutathione weekly….I’ve worked up to 200mg so far.  It makes me pretty sick and can be hard to increase, but I really need to be on a higher dose to help my body rid itself of all the neurotoxins from the Lyme Disease.

2.) Wisdom for Doctors regarding my Cardiovascular problems… Lyme related? Nutrition-deficiency related? Or Heart related?  I’ve had full Cardio work ups with Cardiologists etc….and we can’t seem to exactly pin point what is going on with my heart except that Lyme Disease can pretty much be blamed for just about any symptom and we do know for a fact that it is attacking my heart.  So pray against the Lyme from causing any further damage and for healing and a balance of my Cardio System.

3.) Strength & Courage easing back into starting Blood Treatments again next week….that those would go smoothly and continue to help my body rid itself of the Lyme Disease in my blood and other co-infections I am fighting.

4.) Continued increase in muscle strength so that I can walk up stairs easily again without needing to lay down for an hour after just going into the upstairs of our house.

5.) That new tests we are doing over the next few weeks would shed more light on what is going on inside my body with more clear direction on the best treatment options.

Thank you for letting me share those specific requests with you all! <3  Before heading into my Doctors appointment yesterday I was praying and claiming this verse that had really encouraged me in my morning devotions: “GREAT is our Lord and ABUNDANT in STRENGTH; His *understanding* is INFINITE.” ~Psalms 147:5  The understanding of my Jesus…my Healer…my Jehovah Rapha is infinite, beyond measure and there is no limit to His wisdom.  Even though there is still so much unknown regarding Chronic Lyme Disease….how to treat it….how to fully overcome it…and more specifically, with my body…what exactly is going on with my muscles etc…JESUS KNOWS! <3  NOTHING is hidden from Him.  He fully understands and comprehends every aspect of my health and my prayer is always that His wisdom will flood the minds of the Doctors that I work with and that He will lead and direct through them as I continue on to full healing.  What a comfort it is to meditate on the fact that HIS understanding is infinite. <3  Chronic Lyme is barely understood by us humans…but completely understood by our God! <3  Thank You, Jesus! 

My Doctor is having me get back into blood treatments regularly now that I am stronger again as well as continue with my IV’s and shots of glutathione, daily PFG treatments, almost hourly different combinations of supplements/medicine/herbs/shakes etc…  Everything has a different purpose, but the end result is to help bring my body to full healing from the Lyme. Some things I do are fighting the Lyme Disease cells and other co-infections, some are helping my body detox because I have a gene mutation that makes detoxing the toxic poison Lyme releases into my cells almost impossible, and others are for rebuilding all the damage that the Lyme has done to my muscles, nerves, brain…basically every organ.  I deal with almost constant very intense pain throughout my whole body still and even though I’m walking again….WHICH IS HUGE…(Thank You, Jesus)….I still spend about half of most (not all) days in bed due to weakness/fatigue/pain.  The cold from this past Winter really aggravated my pain levels and so I am *extremely* thrilled about Summer being around the corner and the refreshment that spending time outdoors in the sun always brings! :-)

I feel like the Lord has been bringing me to a lot of verses recently about *waiting*….

“…having *PATIENTLY* waited, he obtained the promise.” ~Hebrews 6:15 

“The Lord favors those who fear Him, those who *WAIT* for His lovingkindness.”~Psalms 147:11

“In the shadow of YOUR wings I will take refuge UNTIL destruction *passes by*.” ~Psalms 57:1

“I would have despaired unless I had BELIEVED that I WOULD see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.  *WAIT* for the Lord; BE STRONG and let your heart take courage; Yes, *WAIT* for the Lord.” ~Psalms 27:13-14

And so, when the pain wakes me up again….and it’s hard to face another day of treatments…when I’m beyond frustrated at still having to spend so much time in bed...I read through, pray through and claim all the precious promises and verses that He has blessed me with in His Word about WAITING. <3  “There is always an afterward of His gracious promising.” ALWAYS an afterward…<3  There’s a day before….and a day after….the day before the leper could walk, and the day after he was healed!  The day before the woman who had bleeding for 12 years who had spent all she had on Doctors, and then the day after she was healed!  There was the day before the blind man could see….and then the day after!  Praise God!!!  “God sometimes delays, but HE ALWAYS COMES!”  “In the Name of Jesus, I have asked and received. It is true that I have had to WAIT because my time was ill-judged and God’s time was FAR BETTER. But delays are not denials.” ~Charles Spurgeon  He has proven His faithfulness in my life over and over and over again….He has already done MIRACULOUS healing and the saving of my life over and over and over again….  This battle continues, but it’s not without HOPE.  It’s FULL OF HOPE!  God has blessed me with a prayer army of cheerleaders, many incredible Doctors and specialists and a heart that can’t let go of His promises….knowing that at the *perfect* moment….as I *WAIT* on Him….even when I *FEEL* 10 points behind in this battle against Lyme…HE will help me win this…actually no, He will win it for me…because He already DID win it for me, on the Cross long ago. <3  Thank You, Jesus.

“What I am doing you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand.” ~Jesus (John 13:7) He is doing something….something I don’t understand, something I wouldn’t have chosen to walk through…but HE has a reason, He ALWAYS has a reason, and I can trust Him and praise Him because He went through more for me and saved me from far more pain (the pain of separation from Him) than I could EVER imagine.  <3

Matthew 26:30- “And when they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.” – “The Savior SANG under the very shadow of the cross.  What serenity and inward triumph is reflected in this revealing sentence!  Anyone can sing in the sunshine, but to sing in the shadows is a rare accomplishment.” ~Oswald Sanders

“Not only is Jesus singing as He faces the cross, but what is He singing?  He’s singing praise, worship, thanksgiving, honor to the Lord.  There’s no doubt here; there’s no fear. There’s no anxiety; there’s no turmoil.  There’s just that calm serenity that GOD IS GOOD; GOD IS IN CONTROL; God’s WILL is going to be done.” ~Nancy Leigh DeMoss

And so, in closing with this update and some thoughts….thank you, friends.  Thank you for praising HIM in the struggles and crosses in your own lives…because He LOVES YOU SO MUCH! <3  Thank You for praising Jesus WITH ME….He’s already won the victory over Lyme Disease….but meanwhile, in this *waiting* period…thank you for battling with me in your prayers, support and encouragment.

God bless your day!!!

With love,


Guess What??

Guess what? I’m walking again!!! :-D The past 6 weeks have brought SO many incredibly DIRECT answers to prayer regarding my health and my body has been functioning much stronger and so much better. God IS answering all of your faithful prayers for me and I am *incredibly grateful* to ALL OF YOU and to God for the healing that He has done and will continue to do in my body. I’m still very much in a fight against the Lyme Disease and continue daily at home treatments and weekly in clinic treatments. Being able to walk again and being stronger make the Lyme Treatments MUCH easier to tolerate, but they are still pretty difficult to push through. I continue to *dearly cherish* your prayers as I continue to move forward standing on His promised grace and sufficiency to battle the Lyme until it is gone completely. Thank you for walking and running this journey with me through your prayers. Our Jesus hears and is answering. <3 Very much feel carried right now in HIS strength. :) Praying God’s blessings on each of you!


“But Christ was *faithful* as a Son over His house-whose house we are, if we HOLD FAST our confidence and boast of our *hope* firm until the end.” ~Hebrews 3:6

March 11, 2015-MND00002-2Walking into my clinic WITHOUT a WHEEL CHAIR for the FIRST time since early last Fall… Thank You, Jesus! <3 YOU are so faithful… Can’t even begin to describe what it feels like to be able to walk without assistance after months in bed…..just, Thank You, Jesus. <3

March 11, 2015-MND00003  Feeling well enough to read and journal/work on some projects during treatments!  That hasn’t happened in a long time. :-)  SUPER grateful!  Makes treatment time go by faster. ;-)

“He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might HE increaseth strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall. But they that WAIT upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” ~Isaiah 40:29-31

Update from Monica

Dear Friends,

Hello Everyone!  It has been quite awhile since I have done an update on here, mostly because of the weakness these past several months have contained.  Also, because writing about Lyme is extremely difficult for me.  When I do have energy for writing, I prefer to write about something that has nothing to do with the illness that constantly reminds me of it’s presence with the pain and other symptoms.  It’s also hard to know what to share….I so appreciate people requesting updates from me, but never want to over burden anyone…and feel bad always writing about my lyme disease.  But as SO many of you are on this journey with me through your prayer and support and because I truly believe that God has a plan through this and that documentation is important, I am going to try to be better at updating as my strength increases. :-)  Thank you for bearing with me and for being so kind. <3

I was unable to do my normal treatments this week in Grand Rapids, but was able to go in today for an IV here in Lansing. Up until the “Lyme Episode” that caused this relapse back in the beginning of the Fall every time I received an IV I would get a MAJOR burst of energy and feel great for a few hours.  I SO loved IV days because of that! ;-)   Unfortunately now, I feel nothing but exhaustion even after getting a double IV in one day.  There’s not even a small increase in energy. My Doctors said that is a sign of my body being so weak and run down and depleted of everything that I need the nutritional IV’s all the more.  I will continue getting at least a double IV every week until my body starts balancing back out and strength returns.

Regarding my Lyme and severe gut infection-I just completed a 2 week course of daily antibiotic shots that were really hard to push through.  SOOOOO grateful to have those 2 weeks over.  The “die off” if causes from killing the Lyme is pretty severe along with the other side effects strong meds like that give me.  I’ll be doing another test this week to check the status of my gut infection. Please pray it has cleared up and that we can finally get on top of my Ulcerative Colitis.  There is a definite correlation between when my Ulcerative Colitis is under control and when I start getting on top of Lyme.  When my UC is not under control….Lyme goes crazy in my body because my immune system is so extremely compromised and can’t deal with two big issues very well.

Tomorrow I start 4 incredibly strong herbals to kill Lyme…2 of them I have been on before and they really helped to lower the Lyme count in my blood.  The 2 new ones will be to kill lyme in my brain and central nervous system…  I know I’m repeating myself in this next sentence, but I get asked so many questions about it that I will explain it again. To get rid of Lyme as chronic as mine, and that is in every organ of my body and in every form, there is no *one* medication or *one* herbal/natural supplement or treatment that works. The Lyme builds a resistance to medications as well as natural products and because of that you have to do what’s called “pulsing”.  Where you start and stop antibiotics and strong herbals…there is a science behind it and basically, it helps to keep the Lyme guessing and unable to build a resistance to any *one* thing. ;-)  I would appreciate prayer that easing onto these 4 herbals that kill lyme in different forms goes well.  The “die off” or “herxing” from killing lyme with these is anything but gentle and often makes me feel quite a few times worse before feeling in any way better.  It’s all part of the Lyme recovery process.  So even if it means worse before better, I’m ALL in this. Lyme has stayed plenty long enough as far as I’m concerned! ;-)

A HUGE happy thing for me today was Mom pushed me around in a wheel chair at the grocery store…until I got too dizzy….maybe 15 minutes of grocery shopping bliss!!!  And oh my goodness!!!!  It felt AMAZING to be someplace other than the Doctors office!  That is the FIRST time I’ve been inside a store since September!!  I felt like a little kid in a candy store!  It was so fun. ;-) I’m very grateful to have the energy to sit up for that long.  God is so good.  Standing and walking is still EXTREMELY difficult.  I now understand why so many chronic Lyme patients have to go through physical therapy to learn how to walk again.  My muscles just don’t want to work right and I’m so weak that standing is anything but easy.  I’m still completely dependent on the assistance of others with walking or standing….but clinging always to my promise from Jesus in Isaiah 40:31.  “But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.”  One day soon I’ll walk again on my own!  And….*tears*…I can’t even write that without crying. :-/  I’ll never stop thanking Him for strength…whether it’s to sit up, tie my shoes, be able to brush my hair…or just open my eyes…physical strength is a DIRECT gift from Him. <3  Today, the Lord was laying on my heart the precious promise that “…no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.” ~Psalms 84:11
I felt like He was speaking to my heart that as long as I am seeking Him with all of my heart, soul, mind and strength…each day…whatever that day brings…is *HIS BEST* FOR ME.  And I can praise Him for that! <3 Somehow, all of this…the intense physical pain, the weakness, the hard fight against Lyme…somehow…every day…this is His Best.  He is working it all out for good.  And I can trust Him. <3  It brought so much joy, knowing and trusting and believing that HE.IS.AT.WORK….and the second it’s HIS BEST for me to be healed, however He sees fit to do that, there will not be a trace of sickness or lyme or weakness left in my body. <3  Jesus knows the day and hour….and in the meantime, I can rest in His love, in His timing and in His assurance that He is fighting this battle with me…spiritually and physically. <3 He cares and He has allowed Lyme for a reason.  The Hope of His promises keeps my heart steady in so many ways and gives me the strength and courage to keep fighting. I’m so grateful for Jesus!

This song has been encouraging me:  <3  Jehovah Rapha, the Lord my Healer is my Savior…and I am one day closer to His promised Healing. <3  Thank You, Jesus! He is the God of the impossible. <3 The Doctors that say you can never fully recover from Chronic Lyme must not know the incredible power of my God. :-)  Impossible is NOT a word with Him…;-)


Here’s a picture from a few weeks ago of me getting my IV and reading Beric the Briton by G.A. Henty.  Being able to read again is a HUGE answer to prayer and definitely a praise!!  I never fully lost the ability…but my eyesight and dizziness prevented me from reading for any large amounts of time until recently…and I have jumped back into reading with so much excitement and I think I already have a full years worth and then some of books planned out! ;-)  Thank You, Jesus for eye strength!!!

Well friends, I know this was a very long update.  If you made it this far, thank you for your kindness and concern in reading. :-) Thank you for your prayers, encouragement and support.  Please continue to pray for strength, perseverance, courage and a never ending hope in the promises of my Jesus! <3  Pray that no matter what the future holds…that He is glorified.  This is very much still a fight for my life, but one that is also very much tenderly and lovingly in His hands.  I’m grateful to Jesus for never leaving me or forsaking me and grateful to all of you for being my cheerleaders.

I promise the next update will be sooner and not as long! ;-)

With Love, Prayers & Gratefulness,



I recently read this quote by Hudson Taylor: “I am so weak that I can hardly write, I cannot read my Bible, I cannot even pray, I can only lie still in God’s arms like a little child and TRUST.” || I have felt just like that for most of the past 9 weeks since this most recent health episode. But God has continued to be incredibly faithful through His comforting Words in my Bible, through the encouraging notes from friends and family and the generous support of others. I haven’t improved very much over the weeks except sitting up is slightly easier and so is writing. I still need full assistance with walking and everything else. Another Hudson Taylor quote that really encouraged me was: “All our difficulties are only platforms for the manifestations of HIS grace, power and love.” I don’t fully understand this episode…and my Doctors don’t either…but that’s okay, because God does and He has a plan. Thank you for your continued prayers and for pressing on in this fight with me. I appreciate you all and pray for you often as I know you pray for me. “BLESSED be the LORD, who DAILY bears our burden, the God who is our salvation. God is to us a GOD OF DELIVERANCES; And to God the Lord belong escapes from death.” ~Psalms 68:19-20 “Oh give thanks to the Lord, for He is good, For His lovingkindness is everlasting. Let the REDEEMED of the Lord SAY SO, whom HE has REDEEMED from the hand of the adversary.” ~Psalms 107:1-2 Thank You, Jesus. ~Monica

I VOTED!!!!!

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Hello Everyone! Monica here this time. Thank you to Erin Kissling & others who have been posting for me and thank you to all of you for praying for me!! I saved up my strength ALLLLLL day so that I would have the energy to ride to our assigned voting location & cast my vote! I was praying for God to give me the strength to sit up long enough to do that and HE DID! I don’t think I’ve ever been more grateful that our voting location is only 2 miles down the road!!! Even with it being that small of an outing it wore me completely out and I’m crashed on the couch again. I am thanking Jesus for the small improvements of being able to sit up longer, though! That’s HUGE! I was watching YouTube videos today of fellow lyme fighters and one of them mentioned what a triumph it was when he could finally tie his shoes again! I was like….”YES”!!! Makes you thank Jesus for the “little” things…which are just as much blessings as the big ones. Please keep praying for me…especially tomorrow. I have a Doctors appointment tomorrow with my main Doctor and then an appointment on Friday with a Specialist. We are really needing clear direction & wisdom regarding SO many treatment decisions…as well as insight into what is going on with my body right now. I’m really not doing good…and have been needing to rest from just about everything…including posting on here and my blog. I’ll post when I can but will probably keep letting my family or Erin update my accounts and reply to people because of how even the smallest things like typing can drain me so quickly. Thank you for understanding why I can’t always reply and thank you for letting me know that you all are praying for me! It encourages me more than I can say!!! God blessed my heart today with this verse: “For I the Lord do not change…” ~Malachi 3:6 He is STILL the God who HEALS, the God who PROVIDES, the God who covers us in the Shelter of His wings & the God who never leaves us or forsakes us. There have been daily scary episodes with my health the past 4 weeks that leave me pretty much debilitated for minutes to hours depending on the severity….without Him, I know I couldn’t keep going through this – but WITH HIM, His grace is sufficient and I know every day is one day closer to His promised healing. Thank you so much, friends! I love you all and pray for you often even when I am not strong enough to write. Thanking Jesus tonight for the gift of voting in this country of ours, the gift of wheel chairs for when we’re too weak to walk and the gift of a little burst of strength He gave me to let me vote as well. God is good. All the time! Blessings on all of you!

Love, Monica

P.S. – If you haven’t voted….you have NO EXCUSE!! Get out there and vote, people! God bless America!


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Hello Everyone!

I’m sorry for this very long over-due post.  Updates are happening more frequently on my Facebook page ( right now as my dear friend, Erin Kissling has been posting updates and pictures on there to keep everyone informed.  This post is going to be rather quick as my strength & energy can disappear almost instantly right now.  This is the first time in almost 3 weeks that I’ve even felt somewhat able to sit up and type and I can already feel it exhausting me greatly.

A little over 3 weeks ago I had completed 2 months of medications for my gut infection and that seemed to be clearing up and I was SLOWLY regaining strength and had worked up to biking several miles at a casual/easy pace.  I was starting to feel SO much better and really thought I was on the upward swing with the infection and Lyme.  And then, completely out of the blue I had an episode of collapsing and lost the ability to walk or use my arms very much.  It’s not uncommon for me to have an episode like that…but then it clears up after a couple hours or after a good night’s sleep.  The weakness, intense pain, burning and a whole host of other Lyme-Related symptoms continued and strength didn’t return.  A visit to one of my Doctors showed us that what I was taking to break the biofilm around the Lyme Spirochetes was working and they were probably being released into my body faster than I was killing them.  Hence this attack on my Central Nervous System, Muscles, Heart etc….  We are now ramping up my protocol for killing the Lyme and hoping that I pull out of this soon.  I’m already seeing some improvement with being able to sit up a little easier…and typing like I’m doing right now.  Most of the time though, I’m still curled up in a little ball – very nauseous, in extreme pain, and major weakness.  I think where I went wrong was cutting back so much on my Lyme treatments when I was fighting the infection and starting to feel better.  This battle against Lyme can be very unpredictable and very much a guessing game, even to Doctors.  When Lyme is in every cell of your body, like mine is…you can’t kill the lyme too quickly (people have died that way)….but you also can’t kill it too slowly.  So there is a constant delicate balance to find.  Finances were also an issue in discontinuing some of my treatments and instead of trying to keep fundraising…I thought I would just continue getting better as long as I was keeping up with some at home treatments.  I think that was also a mistake on my part that contributed towards this episode.  Even though it’s extremely difficult having a setback again, I’ve been so encouraged by the Lord’s love & faithfulness through this trial. <3  I don’t understand it, but I know that He is here and that He is working everything out for good. <3  Even when I haven’t had the energy to read it…I’ve been holding my Bible tightly today and up close to my heart….knowing that inside those pages is all the strength, joy, hope, comfort, love & reassurance I could ever need.

I thank each of you for the outpouring of love that you continually show me in your e-mails & comments.  Because of my health, I’m not able to reply to many right now…but please know that your thoughts & prayers are ALWAYS deeply appreciated and touch my heart. <3

I can tell that my body is needing to lay back down and rest now… I don’t know when another burst of energy will happen where I can write a blog post…but again, my friend is keeping up with my facebook page if you would like more frequent updates.

Thanks so much!!  God bless each of you.

Love Always,