I hope this finds you enjoying a lovely Spring day! I’m pretty good, except that I’m experiencing a lot of “air hunger” (feeling like I can’t get enough air because of a lyme co-infection I’m dealing with) and some bad chest pain today. Both of which definitely wipe me out, so I’ve spent today resting in bed. Because my activity is quite limited on days like today it’s a good opportunity to write a blogpost then, right?! :-) Right. ;-)
On Tuesday I saw my main Dr. at the Born Clinic in Grand Rapids, MI. We were going over the results to my NutraEval test through Genova Diagnostics which is a very comprehensive test looking at the function, health, nutrition and toxicity levels of your individual cells. It was quite fascinating because it was an 11 page report on all the nutrients your cells need to function correctly. I would recommend ANYONE to get this test who are experiencing any kind of health problems. I learned that for myself personally, ALL my vitamin B levels are WAY below normal range even though I’m taking a lot of vitamin B already. And when I mean ALL B levels…I mean ALL. ;-) LOL. B1, B2, B3, B6, B7, B9, B12….no wonder I feel so exhausted and tired all the time!!! I’m also quite low in magnesium, a-lipoic acid, glutathione, vitamin C etc etc… I do take all of those vitamins but now I’m needing to increase them even more and possibly take different versions of them as well as other supplements that will help my cells actually absorb the nutrients. Recently 2 of my main symptoms have been heart issues as well as major fatigue which besides Lyme causing both of those things, low vitamin levels can also cause them. Magnesium is one of the most important nutrients for the heart to function normal, so it makes sense if my magnesium is so low that I’m getting heart issues and then my energy is pretty low which ANYONE is going to have low energy with their Vitamin B levels being almost non-existent like mine. My Doctor showed me a diagram of the “Krebs Cycle” and how you need the right balance of fats, carbs, proteins, amino acids, etc for your cells to accept and process nutrients. If you don’t have enough of something, pathways shut down and can cause a host of bad symptoms in the body….not to mention that already Lyme itself totally depletes the body of it’s nutrition storage as well as glutathione and other things the body uses to process vitamins in the cells. I know I’m doing a terrible job of explaining this….but it’s so interesting how God made our bodies to work and that if any one thing is out of balance it will start to cause problems. A test like this definitely helps with recognizing what areas of nutrition you need to work on and what areas you are good with. You don’t want to overdose on vitamins…but sometimes, you do have to take quite large doses of certain ones to get your levels back up to normal. This is just one of the many puzzle pieces we are working on to get my health back up to par. It’s easy for people to think that it’s all about just killing the Lyme Disease. And yes, that’s a HUGE piece to the puzzle of recovering your health from Chronic Lyme, but there are many other pathways that need to be taken care of as well and making sure your body is getting the proper nutrition is just as critical. Your cells can’t repair the damage the Lyme has done to them without it. I look forward to the day, hopefully soon, when my Lyme is completely gone and I can just focus on rebuilding my body and get back to my old self! :-) I know that day is coming….thank You, Jesus! I’m so ready for life to involve more than Doctors appointments and tests and treatments and rest days…..:-) *INCREDIBLY* grateful that I have been able to start branching out and doing more activities again outside of the home recently…I can’t tell you how much it blesses my heart to be able to get out of the house and see people!!!! :-D :-) Granted, I often times crash afterwards for a day or two….but it’s so wonderful at least having a little bit of energy back!!!
A few days ago I was getting overwhelmed with EVERYTHING I have to keep track of to keep my health moving upwards (it’s more than a full-time job) and just felt like bursting into tears and was like, “God, I just can’t do this anymore…it’s so hard to keep fighting such an intense battle.” And I felt like He just looked down at me and smiled and said, “Monica, grab your hymn book and go outside and just rest in praising Me for awhile.” And so….that’s what I did. Without fail, EVERY SINGLE TIME I just spend time praising Him renewed strength, courage, joy, peace and encouragement floods my soul balancing out my emotions and getting my focus back on my Savior! He inhabits our praises! Satan flees at praise! Praise erases discouragement because you focus your heart, mind and spirit on the One who conquered death, sin and sickness on the cross. The God who made Heaven and Earth is the God who helps me and you, who walks with us through EVERY moment of joy and EVERY moment of sadness. I love this verse: “But thou art holy, thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel.” Psalm 22:3 – He inhabits our *praise*! And where God inhabits…where Light permeates…darkness is forced to leave. I guarantee you that you can’t stay discouraged for long when you start singing through the solid hymns of old and praying through the precious Psalms. And so, thanks to God….that’s been my habit lately, if I start to feel overwhelmed or like I can’t carry this burden anymore…I sing through hymns and pray through Psalms until that feeling of discouragement lifts and only He is left. To those of you who may be suffering in even deeper and greater ways than I am, I am not downplaying your suffering….or mine. But isn’t it amazing that we have One who *understands* and *sees* and *knows* and has promised to somehow work it all out for good and for His glory? <3 We CAN praise Him for what He has ALREADY done, we CAN praise Him for what He is to us RIGHT NOW in this moment, and we CAN praise Him for what He is GOING to do. “Forty years was a LONG time to wait in preparation for a great mission. Yet when God delays, He is NOT inactive. This is when He prepares His instruments and matures our strength. Then at the appointed time we will rise up and be equal to our task. Even Jesus of Nazareth had thirty years of privacy, growing in wisdom before He began His work.” ~John Henry Jowett And also this one: “God is never in a hurry. He spends years preparing those He plans to greatly use, and never thinks of the days of preparation as being too long or boring. The most difficult ingredient of suffering is often time.” ~Streams in the Desert And so, knowing that we can trust His timing as being perfect, when discouragement hits you based on any battle you are facing, whether it be Lyme Disease, another Chronic Illness, or something else….remember these verses, choose to trust your Heavenly Father, and praise Him because He ALWAYS does somehow and in some way work everything out for good. “Rejoice *ALWAYS*; pray without ceasing; in everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” ~1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
To all of you fighting hard battles today….physical, emotional, unseen or seen….be encouraged. Just like your God did not forget Joseph, Moses, or Job during their long moments of “waiting” seasons…He has not forgotten you! Recently I’ve been re-reading “Abide in Christ” by Andrew Murray and was blessed by this section: “Blessed rest, the fruit and the foretaste and the fellowship of God’s own rest, found of them who thus come to Jesus to abide in Him! It is the peace of God, the great calm of the eternal world, that passes all understanding, and that keeps the heart and mind (Phil. 4:7). With this grace secured, we have strength for EVERY duty, courage for EVERY struggle, a blessing in EVERY cross, and JOY of life eternal in death itself.” ~Andrew Murray – He went on to explain how Jesus is the Vine and we are the branches…with the analogy of everything that the branch has and does is determined by it being connected to the Vine. Everything in the Vine spreads to the branch….the Vine holds nothing back. The same is for us with our Jesus! We are the branches and so EVERYTHING that our Jesus is…His strength, love, hope, joy, courage etc…ALL of that can be ours as we spend time abiding in Him and looking to Him to meet every need. Afterall, the branches can’t do anything on their own apart from the vine, and neither can we apart from God. :-)
Okay, enough talking, Monica! :-) Blessings on you and your day! Thanks for reading and God bless you.